Saturday, May 06, 2006
its 2am, and i'm wide awake.
someone once told me, if brad pitt were to hold a gun, that gun will look fake.
that was 3-4 years ago? until a couple of hours ago, i chanced upon refutations to that point. haha.
just finished watching fight club. started off with some boring monotonous voice, for which i usually would not have continued watching. haha. it didnt last long. i like stories about split personalities. that was the spark to me reading in sec 3.
brad pitt still reminds me of peanut butter, and THAT show i forgot to watch. whatever the title is. =(
Just wanted to pen down some thoughts from stella's entry.
i know i'm lag, but there is just this constant bug in my head about this.
Forgive & forget.If you cant forget, how can you ever forgive?
BUT, even if you manage to forget, it doesnt mean you forgive. am i not right?
Forget implies that you do not wish to remember about what happened. Forget indicates that you no longer care about it. Forget connotes that you are oblivous to your surroundings. FORGET suggests ignorance!
To forget is just a stepping stone towards forgiving. However, it is not an obligation to reach towards. Neither is it a possible achievement at times. Its just.. beyond your power.
Still, its a matter of choice.
your choice decides who you are. your choices assert your identity. your choices made defines you as an unique indivdual, apart from the rest.
There are 2 things which, for the first time, its impossible for me to step up. It is as though i'm physically handicapped. Handicapped by my own mentality? Like a chameleon, i resign to my thoughts, unconsciously.
Out of 3, i find only one i feel i have a chance for a fight. This one, winning or losing, doesnt depend on me. The other 2, on the other hand, i do not wish to.
Maybe i do.oh great. can ...? or will i never get to that point.In truth, people can generally make time for what they choose to do. Its not really the time, but the will that's lacking.
~John lubbock
When you make the right choice, you will make the time.
i know why i can never past GP.
i'm lost.
Picture this. a forest, thick with trees. dark, cold, and damp. you see nothing. nothing but emptiness around you. you look up, you see nothing. the clear empty sky is hidden behind the dense interlocking branches of leaves.
how do you find your way out?
Do you have the strength, mental & physical to carry you out? What if, the area is as large as the Amazon forest?
yes, its just an imagination. with a few more what ifs to make it impossible. Is that how you see this? A proportion of the people around you are like this.
What other answers are there?
Perhaps, there will be a couple of fireflies for light, an elephant for a ride out, and maybe a bear for warmth.
Another fraction will give you this answer. I'm one of them. Just full of wishful thoughts.
You may say that its a dream. In that case, you dream isnt much of a dream, is it? haha. its pitch black! by the way, do you see nothing when you're dead too?
Question is, how do you get out?
haha. there is no way i can come up with figures to substantiate my.. story? i just came up with this. lol
Now what... 3am. put me to sleep...
oh. it flu away. by itself =) 2 wks. good for it, that parasite. lols
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